Dreams are deepest desires of One's heart. The thing that makes the words excited, breath becomes quick and the eyes smile. It is the thing that gives one a vision. I've been reading about being a dreamer. Thinking about what makes me feel excited. I have several, but today I am thinking only about one......being a wife, a companion and friend.
Today, I have learned that one of my deeply held dreams was to be a wife. I Loved being a wife, a support, a companion and friend. To be the strength when he was not, to be the one who came along side. This role caused me to feel deep, deep contentment and peace. I loved being the one he trusted with his deepest things whether they were visions or hurts. I loved being the one to protect him from the world when it was closing in. I never really understood that this was my dream, my purpose and the way God wired me. All I knew was that I felt deep contentment I enjoyed in my life and then it was ripped away.
In the midst of the darkness, it is hard to consider a dream. It hurts to know that this part of my dream has been taken away. It may come back, some day, I don't know God's plan for this part of my life. I know now that the fuel for my dream was that deeply contented feeling I had. It brought purpose to my life and a settled-ness to my soul. I was unaware of how much I was fulfilling my dream until my situation changed and he was no longer here with me.
Today, I ask myself (and you) what is the dream? How are you wired? What brings an excitement to your chest and a smile to your face? A vision that puts energy into your step, makes you short of breath as you think about it and an ache in your gut? Being a Dreamer never has been natural for me. In fact, I would say I am in the lowest percentile of Dreamers. I am leaning to put stuff down, to put legs into the things that cause me to have hope in a life that I love. Are you a Dreamer? What is it that makes your gut ache?
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