Always hurting, never the same. How do I move forward? It feels like my life has little value....All feelings that come and go. The feelings are always there, simply a matter of whether I am distracted with other stuff.

How do I manage the responsibilities alone? These are those that we shared together, or ones that he was good at. Many of these feel overwhelming to me. Many are related to home maintenance issues. if something breaks.

I enjoy visiting with friends and find myself feeling happy at those moments. It is the burden of my life here alone that I find complicated and painful. It is the details. Details that I am not very good at.

Still many days that require more sleep...an afternoon nap helps me make it through the rest of the day. Thankful for friends who have stepped up to help.